Good morning beauties! I am writing about this topic as it is something that is clinging on to my heart lately, and wanted to share with you as I know I am not the only mama out there that feels this way.
Time Is Passing Us By
I feel like from the moment we are pregnant we are told how “fast time flies” and to “enjoy every single moment”. I’ve always been told that, have always believed it, but hadn’t felt it as much as I have been in the past month or two.
This past couple of months I have seen Cami grow from a baby to a little girl that is understanding, silly, and responds to our conversations. She shows affection and let me knows when she needs her mama and dad. She cries when I leave the house without her, and will bang on the door if I dare go into the bathroom without her. (I secretly love knowing she loves me that much lol) I feel like this all just happened over night. Like one day she just woke up and decided to no longer be my baby and is now a toddler.
This not only makes me realize but reassures me how fast time is truly passing us by. I want to cherish, and experience every little moment with her. I want to capture every little laugh, giggle and temper tantrum. Sure, receiving pictures and videos from my mom does help. But it doesn’t take away the fact that I am not there with her, that I miss her like crazy. Even tho she sometimes makes me want to pull my hair out! Am I going to wake up tomorrow with a preschooler? Talking to me? Not wanting to hold mama’s hand? And hug me? (insert crying emoji here lol)
Its crazy, because for a few months probably from her 7 months through 11 months this guilt had gone away. I was totally in the groove of things. I was in a routine. I had the work schedule I had requested, had time with her after work, and got to go workout once a week. Perfection in my eyes. But lately, I’ve been having to work long hours, and by the time I get home its dark, dinner time, and near her bed time. So I get a solid 1.5 hours with my daughter. The entire day! Sigh…
The Light At The End of the Tunnel
This new and recent work schedule is not permanent, so at least I get the tiny satisfaction that soon enough this craziness will die down and I’ll get to spend as much more time with Cami. It also warms my heart to know that I have such an amazing and supportive family. I honestly don’t know what I’d do without them. My parents take care of Cami while I’m at work and so does my mother-in-law, it is so so appreciated. Knowing that she is in good hands helps be able to focus while I’m at work.
Being a working mom is a challenge. But being a mom in general is a challenge! Whether we are SAHM, WAHM, or working mamas we all struggle, we all have dificulties. But love will always conquer.
I would really love to hear from you! What is something that you struggle with as a mom? How do you cope? Is there something you used to struggle with? How have you overcome it? Lets share and have open discussions <3
Love you all, until next time…